I am getting tension headaches more frequently.

Getting to bed early, getting up early, stretching 7 days a week, cardiovascular exercises 3 times a week, weight-training 4 times a week, keeping a maximum of 1200 calories in a day.

I’ve been doing this for two weeks now.  (Oh, except for the “getting to bed early” part, as well as the “getting up early” part.  I have my lapses.  Sometimes old habits die hard.  I even have an alarm on my cellphone to remind myself that I have to sleep early.)

My eye doctor told me that I need to lose weight.  Two months ago, I had the scare that I might have glaucoma since my eye pressure was at the borderline. Good thing that my peripheral vision exam was normal.  I don’t have glaucoma.  And hopefully not anytime soon. Or better yet, not get it at all.

 I’m doing Gudang occasionally.  The last box that I bought last September is still in my bag, with two left. While the one I bought last August lasted only for a month!

 I’m living a healthy life, more or less…

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What ticks me off is the fact that my obesity is not what’s driving me nuts right now.

It’s the choices that I have to make “for my future”

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Last June, I was accepted to work as a Nurse 1 in the University of the Philippines – Philippine General Hospital (UP-PGH). 

This is the hospital of my dreams!  It has been “IT” ever since I knew that I got accepted as a biologist 11 years ago.

But I have been waiting for the call since July, and because of the election ban last September and October,  the call was postponed further and further.  Up to know, there has been no call.  I don’t want to say that I’m getting impatient, but yes, I’m getting impatient.

Bottomline is, despite this impatience, I still would want to wait for that call.  My family used to be excited about the employment, but now, they are impatient, too, and says that a 3-year contract is too long. 

Dilemma #1:  Shall I wait for the call and take the job at PGH? 3 years is three years.  I don’t want to breach my contract.  What if retrogression is lifted, I’ll be interviewed and approved of an immigrant visa, and I have to go to USA before my contract ends?

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Last December 3, I attended an information seminar regarding getting nurses to go to Australia.  If I am to work there, I have to take a qualifying exam by the Queensland Nursing Council (QNC).  “Why not?“, I told myself.  I’ve been studying for the past 11 years, I could study for another exam and pray that I would pass.

But getting there entails a lot of money… about Php280,000.00.  I still don’t know where I’m going to get that money.  By working perhaps? (at PGH?!? LOL!!!)

Dilemma #2:  This is too enticing.  If I choose this option, I’ll be able to earn more than what I’ll be earning in PGH.  But I have to pay my earnings to the money I assume I’ll be owing just to get there. (Well, for the first one and a half years probably.)

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Just this afternoon, a friend of mine sent me a congratulatory message, saying that I passed both qualifying exams for a 6-months training as a Burn Nurse and a Critical Care Nurse at Davao Medical Center (DMC). 

 Dilemma #3:  If I take this training, I’ll be spending about Php6,000.00 training fee, and I won’t get paid for 6 months.  On a lighter note, I’ll be getting a certificate for training with a very good hospital.  And I don’t have to leave home… yet.

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I am not liking this indecisiveness that I have right now… because I know it is always better to make a wrong decision than make no decision at all…

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Oh well.  I’ll just brood over it a little more…

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